I would have liked to celebrate more today, as this was my last BCG treatment until at least June 6 when I have my cystoscope. However, I was in too much pain from the drive home to do much celebrating. The medical donut helped, but it did not relieve all areas of my pain.

Today I had my final bladder treatment, which has unfortunately left my bladder quite “angry,” as my physicians describe it. I was blessed to be cared for by a kind and compassionate nurse practitioner who truly listened and addressed all my needs—praise God and all glory to Him.

Throughout this challenging six-week journey of extreme highs and lows, God has continually reminded me that I am not in control. Whenever I try to dictate what should happen, He gently asks whether I am truly trusting Him and my medical team, encouraging me to defer faithfully to those whose expertise exceeds my own.

Instead of starting a new medication, she increased my bladder spasm medication to a stronger, extended-release dose to see how I respond. If that does not help, I am to return to my previous prescription, and if that still does not provide relief, I am to contact the office and they will adjust the medication accordingly.

My feet are swollen, though there is no pitting edema. I have been placed on Lasix for three days, and if there is no improvement, I am to see Dr. Lee. The swelling likely occurred because I have been unable to sit without experiencing pain at a level of 10 or higher unless my feet were elevated. I have also been unable to lie comfortably in bed, which has prevented me from properly elevating my legs. Hopefully, the Lasix will resolve the swelling.

I was able to retain the BCG for 75 minutes, which is excellent for day six, and I now have medical permission to attend church starting Palm Sunday.

Despite my exhaustion, I remain deeply grateful for the exceptional care I have received throughout this storm. I have learned that focusing on blessings rather than complaints not only honors those who have helped care for me but also strengthens my own spirit during difficult times. Through it all, I give thanks to the Divine hand guiding my path, finding solace in the unwavering grace that sustains me even in my weakest moments.

I am resting in the arms of my Good Shepherd, who restores my soul and guides me through every valley.